Happy Day Turned Sad Day~

Today was going to be a happy day.  We were pregnant, excited, and going to the doctor to hear our baby's heartbeat this morning.  My happy day ended up not as happy as I thought.

Alex has been at a conference in Wichita for the last two days, and when I scheduled my doctor's appointment, I didn't have this conference in my calendar.  I didn't think much of him not being here for the doctor's appointment, as I've been there done that a couple of times;-) He called late last night to tell me he had too much work to be gone another day, so he was going to leave Wichita to meet me at my doctor's appointment and then go to work.  I thought it was silly, but obliged to have company.
Little did I know God was at work.

We met at the appointment and all was fine.  We listened intently, and then got to the point of listening for a heartbeat.  Bless our nurse practicioner's heart, she hunted and hunted for a quick little blip.  She even went to get the doctor's doppler to have a more accurate count, but alas, there was nothing.  She encouraged us that sometimes they just can't find them and sent us to have a quick sonogram to check.

We didn't have an appointment for the sono, so they said they would just work us in.  An hour and a half later, they took us back and quickly pulled up the little bean on the sonogram machine.  It was about 5 seconds before I could tell, there was no heartbeat.  The sonographer was kind and apologized for our loss, and I could tell that was honestly the worst part of her job.  I was saddened but had prepared myself in my hour and half wait that this was a possible outcome for this day. 

We are heartbroken, but we realize we are not alone on this life hiccup.  One in four pregnancies end in miscarriage, and I am no different.  We thought we were 12 weeks, but in fact, I had lost the baby somewhere between 7 and 8 weeks.  Alex is my rock, and we will stumble our way through this trial together.  I firmly believe God sent me Alex to be with me through this.  It took the better part of 4 hours before I left that office with an answer I was fully not prepared to receive.  I can't imagine if I would have done that alone, and I am so fortunate to have the husband I have. 

So, send some prayers our way if you have some.  We are grieving and reestablishing our family path at the moment, but we know we are not alone. 

I hugged my two beautiful children a little extra today when I picked them up, and I am thankful for the blessings God has given me thus far.  I guess he needed this baby a little more than I. 

Spring Break!

Spring break is upon us, and I am just now getting into the groove of it on Wednesday;-)

Life has been a bit chaotic around here the last month or so.  I haven't felt good at all, and Alex has been crazy busy at work bringing home work several nights a week.  It makes for a tired Mom and Dad, although we are continuously reminded of the blessings of too much work;-)  I'm still teaching my night class which has also proven to be much more time consuming than I anticipated.  This is where I really hate being a Type A personality!  I really want to do it right, which means I invest a lot of time into getting it done perfectly;-)  So, needless to say, this week is kind of a get our feet back under us kind of week.  There wasn't a to-do list.  That is just stressful, and I really don't need more stress.  If it gets done, it gets done, and I'm just really not going to fret it too much.  We are only in this season of life for a short while, so I'm giving myself grace this week!

We have managed some fun time along with the usual house cleaning and decluttering.  Here's the week's progress so far:

1. Cleaned the microwave-EWWW!
2. Cleaned the refrigerator.
3. Done more loads of laundry than I can even count-almost all caught up!
4. Vacuumed
5. Dusted
6. Made Rice Krispy Treats and Homeade Granola Bars
7. Started reading a book for pleasure.
8. All caught up on grading for both school and night class-Woot! Woot!
9. Napped every day but 1!
10. Took kids to the zoo in the SNOW~
11. Took Rowan painting at Paint Therapy Uncorked

We colored!  Well, I should say, Rowan colored.  Isla sat on the table and arranged the crayons!

So detailed!

So not coloring!

This girl has personality!  Can you tell?

We've done some of this!  Really, we never get to watch cartoons in bed.  Isn't that what spring break is for?

We painted.  Rowan painted a rocket ship!

Rowan's BFF-Gage!

So proud;-)

Funny faces~

Me and my 2 sons;-) 

I'm okay with these accomplishments, and I still have 4 more days to add stuff to accomplished list;-)